Does anybody else experience that feeling of loathing when you go to work? Anybody? Well, as of late I have been feeling that myself. I work for the School District here, so I don't change jobs, just locations. So, after three years at my previous location I promoted to a higher position and also a new location (even though it is just across the street).
Yesterday I just came to the feeling that I couldn't continue at this location anymore, and that I greatly missed my previous location and co-workers. At first I thought it was because I missed the comfort of the known from my previous location, but that isn't the case at all. I looked deeply into my feelings had soured upon getting such a great opportunity, and it boiled down to the fact that I really dislike the environment. It is very unstable, and it seems that the powers that be here like to have it that way. If I'm not changed to a different cubicle (along with the rest of the staff), I am being assigned to a differnt group, or the head honchos Downtown "recruit" our people to work at the main building.
There is also the fact that much of the time spent at work I'm doing nothing. Sure, this might be ideal for some, but not for me. Finding things to occupy yourself with gets tiring after a while. Even the fact that I haven't worked all that much this year because of having bronchitis, the times I am at work I spend surfing online and doing - nothing. I hate it.
I'm also not being used to the fullest of my capacities. For instance, the other day our boss came by asking one of the people of my group if he could reduce the encumbrance of a job, to which my co-worker said he would try. And it was just last week where I told them both, and we discussed it in detail that I knew how to do that because I did that exact thing at my previous location. Yet, the didn't come to me, so screw them I thought - let them struggle with it.
After mulling over this for the past few weeks I finally took the leap and spoke with my old Supervisor about transferring back. She said I had to finish my probationary period at my current location before I could transfer (six months, and I started in September, so only a few more to go). Ok I thought. Then with that I e-mailed my previous bosses (one being the Director) of my intentions to transfer, and that I would really like to go back. That I would really want to come back with my current position, but if that was not possible that I would still be transferring locations regardless - only that I wanted to give them a heads up so I could focus my efforts in that direction.
I was happy after making that move. Because even though I don't dread going to work on a daily basis, I just feel so disillusioned going to work as of late, and I never felt that way in my previous location. I also decided to go back to school and pursue a business degree, I start in February.
This year is going to by dynamic for me, to make up for all the undynamicness (made up word I believe) of last year where I was sitting around waiting for my broken leg to heal. So, even though I can't literally run - in spirit it surely feels as if I am.
. So, after wracking my brain for the last few days here is what I came up with.
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