April 7, 2008
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It's odd to come to the realization that I am way happier now then I have been in a while. So happy I can't believe it at times and think it is all a dream, until I come across that happiness during the day and see it is real.
The world is an amazing place, even when it's driving me mad. Yet, the moments of madness are what have driven me to this point where I broke free from all the craziness - I had to make a choice ... live or die. Oddly enough I decided to die, and now I'm here and happy. Certainly this entry could be considered cryptic and vague, but I know what it means and in the end that is what truly matters.
Honestly though, there will be rough patches in getting to my desired end - but it will be worth it. Nothing I haven't been through before. I won't say it's comparable to my past experiences ... but I highly doubt it will be as taxing.
Comments (4)
Yes, this is cryptic and vague, but what really matters is that you are on a path of your choosing.. and happy.
*sparkle
gotta tell you i've heard so many people talking about choosing and choices and all i've figured out is i'd rather die some moments than live. i don't know what it all means and i won't pretend to know anymore. i just know some days i'm happy and other days the world seems like its out to get me.
glad you're happy in your death whatever that death might be.
You know it was the right decision/choice when so much relief comes from it
well,well....I'm glad for you Old friend, finally I hope you quit thinking too much in what you gonna do. Now you know what to do....Just grab happiness and don't let go, enjoy the ride and let go....Now business "what about that movie "?