September 23, 2007

  • I've been noticing recently that I wake up at odd hours of the morning with a million thoughts in my head.  My voice whispering them all at the same time, sounding like a tunnel full of echoes in my mind.  Does this happen to anybody else or is it just me?  It has gotten to the point where I am considering telling my doctor if there is some medication for this because it really makes it hard to sleep or even go to sleep!  Sometimes I wonder about myself. 

    And now that I recently turned 33 I have to say that I still don't feel like an adult, and I actually think that the reality of being an adult is truly just a myth.  I look around at others who have a family, married and taking care of kids - then I think how in the hell do they do that?!?  Seriously, HOW????  Even at my age right now I don't feel like I can handle something like that, and have no idea how others manage it.  Then it got me to thinking, growing up you are never really taught how to live at all.

    I feel like there is some class I skipped or something in becoming an adult, and I'm sure I'm not the only one.  There are days when I'm at work sitting in my little cubicle, looking out at the city ... and I wonder how in the hell did I get here?!?  How did it all happen?

    Oh, and is it me or has anyone else noticed that the older you get the faster time seems to go by!  I was cleaning out my car the other day and found a certificate I got from work in 2003!  2003!?!?  I've been with my current "company" for 4 years now and it doesn't feel like it, so I guess that's good ... but damn where did the time go.

    So I guess that's it for the rambling, I'll be around here a bit more often now ... but first I've got to check out all the new Xanga stuff going on ... which I note is quite a bit.

Comments (6)

  • Hi Liz, How are you. If feel like ages since I had visited your Xanga. It does feel as if time is speeding up as we get older...but it is partly due to the fact that we forget to just play and let the world be. We are too caught up in the rat race and then realize suddenly that we lived but that we had no life.

  • Holy crap, I thought that you were in your early twenties!  You look so young.  I'm in my forties and I've never felt young or old.  Perhaps if I socialized with people in my age group and heard their laments I might know what persons my age "should" be like.  Then again, I don't hold to the status quo.

    As far as voices, I don't really sleep.  I wake up constantly and I'm always thinking before during and after.  I've learned to function by 1) taking a nap and 2) once I do retire for the night I stay in the bed at least 5 hours and don't get out regardless of if I've slept.  Even if you don't sleep, having your body at rest is just as important.  I don't take meds or sleeping pills, as for me, I think they would just open up a whole host of other problems.  My mom on the other hand, has been taking sleeping pills since we were little kids and they don't seem to adversly affect her.

    I think the voices are normal actually as they are my average thoughts waking and sleeping.  If you feel different then yes, I would talk to the doc.

  • Happy Birthday!!! 33 is a great year...Now when u comming to visit? ((Wings))

  • Happy Birthday, fuck Adult hood, and I wish you'd post more.

  • I totally missed that class on how to be an adult and I'm really glad of it.  Someone told me the other day at work that I was peter pan.  I giggled. 

  • Time does go by so much faster as we get older.  I think partly it has to do with the fact that we have a lot more responsibility and are just so busy we don't slow down to notice.  Thanks for the coment on my pic.  Haven't heard from you in a while.  I was just thinking about you the other morning and wondering how things were going.
    *sparkle

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