May 10, 2005

  • Yesterday was the first time ever I was with my brother and he
    drove.  He just got his permit to drive this past week, he's 24
    which is around the same time I got my license. 

    When I get home from work is when I go take him to work.  He asked
    if he could drive my dad's car, and I asked him if my dad knew. 
    As he went back up to the house to tell my dad I told him it's better
    to not let my dad know.  My dad gave me my first driving lesson
    and it was the most nerve wracking experience in my life.  Parents
    (well most of them) shouldn't teach their kids to drive.

    So, I go about a block and a half and let him take over.  I was a
    pile of nerves, especially giving the fact that we live so close to
    Downtown L.A. and it's 5:00 ... lots of traffic ... and lots of people
    anxious to get home.  Luckily he took it slow and steady, needs to
    work on his braking a bit ... but he did pretty good. 

    Though, it put things in perspective.  I hadn't been a passenger
    in so long that not having control was what brought my sense of dread
    up to the surface.  "Hit the brake!" I would excitedly exclaim
    every couple of minutes when I thought he got too close to the cars in
    front of him.  I needed that though.  Once I got over my need
    for that control I felt a lot better, and I actually started to enjoy
    the scenery as well. 

    But, this control issue really got me to dig deep into myself and look
    at what is really at the heart of the matter.  Is it a loss of
    control I fear?  Do I identify with it in some way?  Or is it
    just that I am dependent on the emotions that I derive from it? 
    What is it really to be in control?  On and on through the evening
    I started to delve into different aspects of myself ... all facets ...
    it was an interesting evening.

    It's amazing what simple little everyday things teach us.  I'll be
    taking my brother to work today as well ... I'm sure things will
    progressively get better though.

Comments (4)

  • I agree that parents should not teach their children to drive. It is nerve racking for the parents as well as the children. Emotions run too deep for a parent to effectively teach their child to drive.

    Giving up control can be a very scary thing. Especially for an independent person. But it's important to do it once in a while and just let loose. You should let your brother drive you around more often!

  • My ex-wife's uncle was a terror behind the wheel, not so much his driving but his temper, he purposily breaked hard, he kept his window wound down (in all weathers) so he could use the most foul language at people... . He came a cropper when he called a passing motorcyclist a f****** c***! and the biker heard him and put him in hospital!

    I wrote a "text" based on him!

  • btw, too many weirdos on the bus? Guess how I travel!!!

  • it is good  u r  very aware Q   some people live a lifetime & do not take a look at that issue  ~  sometimes if one doesn't give it up  it is taken for a while  ~  lol   u r a good soul for trusting ur brother ~ magi

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